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Field Report: an online program
participant, shares her results from a nature-connecting activity.
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NATURE-RITUAL CREATES A WHOLE FULFILLING WAY TO EXPERIENCE LIFE
This activity enabled me to bring subconscious/old
brain information into full view of the conscious/new brain through
the use of language that assists in the communication between
the two.
Walking into a natural area has now become a ritualistic experience
for me that allows me to tap into long ignored energy and wisdom
that rejuvenates my body, mind, and spirit.
To ask permission of an area, finding a common level of communication,
and understanding just by making every breath fully conscious
and intentional not only increases the value and respect I have
for that natural area, but validates the respect and value I
have for myself. These deep, conscious breathes are usually
answered by a quiet still moment of clarification where my intentions
are shared, followed by a gentle breeze that is poignant in its
timing, and short in its duration. At times the breeze
has even felt warm and caressing in a way that only a mother(nature)
knows how to caress a child. As the arms of old and natural comfort
begin to fold around me in a united hug, I smile, and at times
have found myself humming a note to match the resonance of energy
shared by a specific attraction. Finding and even verbalizing
(in my most primitive form) the gratitude I feel for being exposed
to my own native wisdom, that I feel has been held captive for
so much of the time in my life, let out only when no one was
looking, including myself. Nature, including my Being,
shares and provides the essence to feel good.
The more I consciously become involved in nature, and the connections
I have with it, the more I feel these connections are what living
is all about. And as my ability to identify and create
them grows with each green in green experience I have, my self-worth
expands exponentially. Because I am nature, made of nature,
and am green and green myself. To reflect and experience
green in green is to share and contribute the energy that supports
us all. To give and receive nature's nameless attraction intelligence.
As I slowly learn to become more and more consciously aware of
each individual attraction/love, and learn to consistently verbalize
them as one of my 53 natural senses I create a "whole"
fulfilling way to experience life. I intentionally try to increase
my use of language that identifies the abilities of my old-brain,
such as saying "thank you" to nature and my natural
senses. By sharing these experiences verbally I connect
my old-brain experiences to my new-brain reasoning and disconnect
from stories that create pain and negative feelings about life.
As this process of connecting and thanking nature becomes more
routine for me, and immediate, I have attempted to share it with
others. At times I feel uncomfortable as my new-brain engages
in stories of self-doubt and embarrassment. Yet when others
are responsive and supportive, it becomes self-affirming, dissolving
new-brain stories to create fulfilling connections with nature
that increase my self-worth instead of destroy it. Because
of this creation and intensification of self-worth, I feel that
everyone deserves to benefit from my experiences and education
in nature. To verbally share them would give people a chance
to think about their attitude towards nature as part of themselves,
and themselves as part of nature. The more I step into the realm
of sharing these good experiences with others the more I learn
about myself in exchange. Recently I have realized that
my long-time educational goals were a story that I had learned
through our standardized school structure, and had told myself
that I wanted. Now that I am learning in a new and beautiful
way I feel a conflict arise, as my old story about standardized
education continues to wrangle my brain as it feels its grip
loosening with each nature connecting activity I participate
in. This conflict has shown itself in the hesitance I feel
sharing my new education with others, for fear of what they will
think, or how they may judge this type of education. I
have ignored this story and allowed it to place value on something
I feel passionately connected to. So, with each time I
share a piece of information I learned from nature or an activity
I have participated in in nature, the conflict begins to dissipate
and renew itself as a realization of love and attraction to myself,
my true being, and a screen of consciousness that make sense
to me, just as I sense my belonging in nature.
As I continue to live life in a nature-estranged society with
momentous expectations that do not fit in the senses of my natural-sensing
old-brain I tend to become dizzy with confusion and anxiety of
such expectations, overwhelming my new-brain and entire sense
of being. I seek refuge as this conflict in my own brain
is relieved when I feel supported in my urge to ignore these
expectations from the conventional world and step inside my natural
ability to feel good about just breathing. Now that I have
renewed this natural ability to feel good and relate to good
feelings in nature, to relinquish it would but my life into a
spin. Spinning around and around grasping at what I am
told will fulfill my needs, only to realize again and again that
such fulfillment could not be found in such a disconnected world.
To maintain such valued connections with nature I feel myself
developing the ability to naturally and consciously be aware
of my connections/senses with nature when I need to be rejuvenated,
which then helps me acknowledge myself as part of nature.
I noticed that I periodically do this by including nature in
my vocabulary when having conversations, breathing when unhappy,
and living in each moment as it comes, finding my natural attractions
in that moment which finds my self-worth. Most importantly, I
thank the love that is shared between myself and nature, for
that is what educates my mind, body, and spirit, and will eventually
educate others in my presence.
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